Saying Goodbye........

I'm sorry that this post has taken me so long. I just couldn't seem to find a good moment to sit down and write it. Having to find out what the sex of our baby was the day after saying goodbye to my Mother-in-law was really emotional and hard. When I first found out we were pregnant I prayed that she would be able to hold on long enough to hold this new precious baby. When I realized that was not going to happen, I changed my prayers to ask God that she would he able to hold on long enough for us to tell her what we are having. In a way I knew that too would not happen. She joked with me the last time I talked with her that she would find out what our baby was before we would, and I know she did just that. I know she was in heaven looking down on us, jumping with joy once she found out too. 

 At the same time I was grieving her loss, I was also filled with a huge since of peace knowing that she is now in heaven holding onto our little angel that we had to say goodbye to. I know that our precious baby is being loved so much by her and that makes it easier to let them both go. There will always be a since of emptiness and sadness at their loss, but an even greater feeling of joy knowing that they're together in a place where they will only feel love. I know that Jeri is now with her husband and the rest of her family, finally without pain. She is finally free of the cancer that hurt her for so many years and finally able to spread the joy that filled her heart. So even though we may be sad at having the people we love not with us, knowing that they are in a place of pure happiness and love makes it easier. 

Tyson knows his baby brother or sister is safe and happy with his Nana and Grampy and they are all watching over him and this new baby. He talks of them often and we will always make sure to find a special way to remind both of our children about the ones in heaven, loving them from above.

We love you Jeri, Terry and Baby Bibbelmin!!!!!!!